Sometimes when you are used to an influx of almost constant information, you hit a quiet time. Quiet times often preclude a big energetic event, new information, or even a time of great challenge. When I get into this quiet zone, it can feel very melancholy for me. I have become accustomed to being in energy, and the only other way to feel is “regular”. Not that that should be bad, but feeling uplifted all the time definitely has its perks. Tonight, I did some automatic writing for myself, and I will share it here with you:
(while asking Source for guidance)
“Do you know that you are able to discern this information for yourself? Please rely on your own inner feelings and beliefs. You are capable of reaching your desired outcome. Realize you are unable to prevent this from happening. Be aware that you are resisting the urge to complete what needs to be done, but you must forge ahead. You are to discover that help is coming, and to initiate that (help through thought and voice). Realize that you will need to express yourself in a way that serves the higher good, but also remind others of what is needed in this world to push forward. You are entitled to this opportunity and will do well with it, don’t misrepresent who you are, but realize that you are all that you need. Be aware that others may not have your best interest in mind and only you can understand what it is you need. Remember who you are and lead.”
The words in parentheses are what I believe to be accurate, but when I auto-write, sometimes it is hard to read back exactly what I wrote. Anyway, with writing this I hoped to gain better clarification with some things that have been on my mind. All I feel I got was more of my own “put your money where your mouth is” neo-scripture jargon. Yes, I say my own, because sometimes that is how it feels. I feel like I am repeating myself over and over with the same answer to different people, and I hear the message, understand the message, but get tired of hearing the message. Realize that we (energetic workers) don’t always love every bit of every day. It can be quite draining at times. Then, in a way of sorts, I hear my own words echoed at me. When people ask for information, it is me, (as the messenger) that needs to tell them that the answers are within them, to trust their heart and follow it. When I feel lost, I ask for guidance from Source, and often I am told that I have my own answers, that I must trust myself to find them. How frustrating!! Now, I get it!! Are you going to answer me or not?! She said with an angry inflection!!!
I am kind of getting a taste of my own medicine here. Source is cryptic with me, I am cryptic with you. I am meant to “lead” you to your own personal empowerment, and that is what Source does with every one of us. This whole do it yourself thing can be tough at times. I mean, really, if I had the answer, would I be asking….that is another thing I say to people: If you were happy in that situation, you wouldn’t be asking me. Maybe Source is saying, “How about being a little more sensitive to others?” Ugh!! I am such a brat!
Maybe Source thinks that I should just think for myself….
Would Source tell me to stop asking….they say “no”. Okay….now what? Guess I need to go back to trusting Source and trusting myself. If the answers were not within this being…then where would they be? Would I send myself here without cryptic messages, and hidden meanings to help me along the way? Hell no!! I’d be slipping myself a note or two every chance I got!!
Just don’t shoot the messenger!