I really can’t say that I am surprised to be going through a roller coaster of thought v. heart. One day a miracle of sorts will be presented to me, the next day it’s as if I dreamed it…only there were witnesses, so no chance of denial. Some of the things I have received through channel and experience don’t always make sense to me…especially when they become deeply personal. Part of me feels as if I am in shock. The other part of me is completely oblivious to the “thoughts” coming from the first part….it has complete faith and zero fear.
What is so confusing to me is that I keep saying that I AM NOT RELIGIOUS, but if I quoted the words I receive, anyone would say I was speaking to religion. I’m not. I speak to the experiences I am having. I really know that this is what is happening. I am experiencing this for whatever reason. We are never shown too far ahead, but faith is completely expected. The little doubt that I have is not about the Universe or what I SHOULD be doing, but in myself. The last shred of confusion remains…..
I know it is my job to get through those last reservations and embrace my destiny completely. I often wonder how exactly I will do this, because all I feel I should be doing is taking a nap. That is not myself choosing sleepiness, I recognize this feeling well. This is the imposed sleep. The rest that you shall take. Regardless of whether or not I like it. Its like watching the metronome….back and forth…back and forth….are you feeling sleepy? Count from 10….10….9…8…zzzzzz! I’m even planning on taking a vacation in the middle of feeling….OMF!! What do I do? What am I supposed to do? Will this work if I DON’T do something????
That’s my brain…the mouse running around the maze desperately seeking the way. My heart says: nap!
There are only so many times I can consciously feel this way and not realize that my fighting any of this just makes it more confusing. I tell my clients to trust their heart because it will not lead them down the wrong path. My heart says: nap! Rest! Be gentle on yourself…..RELAX!!!!!
Take a few deep breaths and quiet yourself. RELAX! Just wait. That is all that is required. Just wait. Close your eyes and experience the relief of being still. Maybe you are tired, maybe you have been doing too much. Perhaps its time for a siesta? Por favor?
MMMMMMmmmmm….sounds good. RELAX!!
When you wake up, you will feel so much better for having taken care of yourself, and your board will be swept clean. A new start, a new day….full of promise….one you can create for yourself. It’s not that far away. Some of us cannot even fathom it, but the only thing to really do is let it wash over you. Let it come. Don’t fear it, allow it. Don’t resist it…rejoice in it…this time it really is time. This time allow yourself to be washed away by the waves gentle caress…wash away all fear from your mind…relax, surrender, let go! Release control over your own destiny and all will fall into place. We try to control so much. I want to be quiet in my mind, serene, secure in my heart, in myself…..knowing or not knowing does not matter.
What will happen….what will happen?? Nothing and Everything. RELAX!
Let it all be washed away.
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